Confused

I'm confused. Really confused. In fact, I've never been more out of it in my entire life. I'm head over heels for this girl and I've no idea if she feels the same way at all. I know what you're thinking: "Oh no! Another teenager facing the real world - big deal!" Well to me it is. That's why I've named this blog "Thoughts of a ruthless nobody", I'm just another teenager - your average nextdoor guy who's after the one thing everybody else is searching for; that special someone you wake up to one morning, her sweet scent gently letting you know that today is going to be the best day of your life. Her eyes shut and her breath steady as she continues her journey into the land of dreams. Her hair messed up in a beautiful construction of the softest hair you've ever had the honour of running your fingers through. Her skin reflecting the early morning light as the blankets cling to her body.

You remember the days and nights before that when you lay lonely in bed thinking about her, how it would be like to sleep next to her. You remember the funny feeling you got when you were on your way to meet her. Every joke she made revealed your most sincere and embarassing laugh. She made it easy for you to be yourself. You continue to gaze at her till she wakes up and when she smiles at you, you declare to yourself that life doesn't get better than this.

This is what I want. This is what I think I have found. The only thing gnawing at my confidence is the not knowing if she feels remotely the same.